Black swan

AHHH! And I watched this show! Omg.

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BLACK SWAN.

The breakup.

By human nature, people tend to judge things by the surface. From what they perceive things to be. To what they think is morally wrong to them. How wrong is wrong? How do you judge if it's very wrong or just a mild mistake? Is it made of what you believe is wrong? Do you know what is wrong? Are there sets of universal rules telling you if it's wrong and the severity of the wrong doings you did?

When two people are together, it is a both party thing. It isn't whereby one side just take and another just give. To me, love is about both sides and mainly, feelings. In a relationship, there should always be consideration for the other party and yourself too. But when one party doesn't feel the same way anymore, it is very torturous to be together. By lying to yourself that it's gonna work, you're gonna waste hell lots of time trying to make it work. Deep inside your heart, you already know that it's not gonna work out, so why are you still dragging things? Isn't there this saying which goes, 长痛不如短痛? Two people go into a r/s and stay in it cause there is love. Without it, what is it?

So what makes someone lose the initial passionate love? There are a lot of factors behind it. More than what outsiders can see/perceive. For every relationship, every quarrel or breakup in it would cause a crack to form. You can mend it but the crack would still be there. Those issues, the way you two quarrel or fight, the things which he/she does to irritate you, the issues you have against your partner. No one knows, except you. Sooner or later, these things are gonna pile up and turn nasty. Outsiders can only see the surface and think the cause of breakup is due to this or that. But seriously, do they know the real truth, the real factors or the real reasons behind the breakup? If they aren't sure, why must they judge? A relationship is just between two people but why must they step in? Why can't they mind their own relationships or their own matters instead of spending time judging and thinking whoever fault that is? They feel it's a certain way, but is it really true? Did find the REAL parties in the relationship to reconfirm? NO! So it's very unfair for some outsider (by that I mean people who are not the parties in the r/s) to judge or think things badly.

About my current issue, I've only got some words to say:

1.Seriously, I'm very vexed about these matters already. By judging and giving comments, you are making it worse for me.

2. As an outsider, I hope you can mind your own matters and try not to put blame any parties involved.

3. Also, since you're an outsider who doesn't know my r/s problems and issues, please do not judge so quickly. Give me a chance to explain. Come ask me. If I feel you're mature enough to understand why it happened, I would tell you.

4. There are a lot, a lot of factors and reason behind this breakup. Of course there would be triggers too. Please do not think anyhow and ASK ME.

5. I hope you all can move on and not judge since me and him have already agreed to be friends and just friends only. If we can move on, why can't you all outsiders do?

6. If you feel as though I'm playing with his feelings, then ponder over these question instead: If I were to play w/ his feelings, why did I spend like 1 year plus playing w/ him? Shouldn't I moved on already?

I'm sorry if I offended anyone with my tone of words. I am currently writing this in a very tranquil state of mind so I am not saying anything malicious. Neither do I have any intention of hurting or shooting anyone. I just had enough of all these and I wanna put a stop to this once and for all.

Hello. This blog is rotting. & I've got PMS so I've figured out that this isn't kinda the best time to blog.

Just trying to find excuses. :x HAHAHAH.


BYEBYE.

If I don't mean it, I won't even bother writing it. So if you don't know what's on my mind, please stop thinking I only wrote that to entertain you. I write it cause it describes my feelings. It didn't even occur to me that you'll read it.

Your words are hurting me but you don't even know it. You only write words in a fit of anger, but have you ever thought from my shoes? You think you're faultless? Or you think I have a larger fault? I think it should be the opposite. Think carefully, what promises you gave to me that time. Now what's happened? I really had enough of your over sensitiveness.

Get well soon.

Don't really have the mood to blog now but I feel like updating this space. Visited my granny at TTSH yesterday. I nearly cried. It was really heart wrenching to see her lying in the hospital bed with the needle poke into her hand while being put on the drip. She seems to have slimmed down too. And she looks tired. Gonna buy something for her to do and read when I visit her later. Okay. Enough about her. Don't really wanna share her condition over here. Sorry.

photos taken some time ago when I was too bored on bus.












































I hope she gets well soon. Bye.

I lead a sad life.

I've the feeling to blog. I don't know why. I just want a place to chat with myself, to put my thoughts in written form and to let me actually have something interesting to do.

What I've been thinking and wondering in my mind for these past few days. You can skipt this part.-------

Recently, I am feeling kinda messed up. I don't know the exact reason, but I think I can blame it on stress, can I?

Life seems normal, but I don't know why I don't feel good. Kinda moody at times, kinda feel like bursting into tears at times. What's wrong with me!

Please try to cheer up and stop being an emo cause it freaks people out and affects people's mood too. Thanks.

Okay, end of thoughts in my brain.

I feel sad!!

Okay, pictures. Not really nice ones cause I'm feeling rather lousy and inferior at the time I was snapping these. Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.













That's all.

And my whole body aches. God knows why.

Oh, and I forgot! SNSD's new MV, Hoot is out! HAHAH. Yay.



Huhu! 훗

I love seohyun, yoona, taeyeon, sunny, hyo yeon, yuri, soo young, jessica, tiffany!

Hahah. Tataz.

I've gotten the book! <3 yay.
The title of the book is "THiS iS MY STORY."
Exactly the way I type it, by Kassandra Kong. It's a good read. Go get it!